Christmas Miracle
Help. I still feel dead inside during this time of year. What will it take for me to enjoy Christmas again? I've watched Gremlins. I took Christmas photos. I even tried listening to Christmas songs like back in my old college days (although, "Don't Shoot Me Santa Claus" by The Killers may not be the best choice). Still nothing. This time of year just makes me sad. I thought that since I've acknowledged what makes me sad that I would be able to turn it around. It's been so long too since I've felt something... 7 years to be exact. Why do I still feel like this?
Miguel doesn't even help. He's like the Grinch lol. He doesn't even like putting up his Christmas tree. I'm just like... why are you sad too? Ironically, the Grinch is my favorite Christmas cartoon of all time. My family just put up the tree. It's standing with no ornaments... lmao.
I think it makes me sad that I'm so broke this year too. I can't really get anything for anyone. In reality, no one really needs anything, but I still feel like a piece of shit. I like giving gifts, and wrapping presents up in cute paper with bows and shit. I realize I also haven't seen any of the Christmas trees or decorations in the city this year. That usually cheers me up a little.
I'm going to feel even worse, because we are approaching January, and I'm going to be 30. People are talking about their last year in their twenties... I'm like bitch, I'm about to enter a new decade. Like just kill me. What is life like beyond 30?? I'm so depressed, and scared about it. I can't even go to Disney because my job sucks during the month of January.
It's just sad a lot of people feel excited during this time, and I just feel nothing.
Miguel doesn't even help. He's like the Grinch lol. He doesn't even like putting up his Christmas tree. I'm just like... why are you sad too? Ironically, the Grinch is my favorite Christmas cartoon of all time. My family just put up the tree. It's standing with no ornaments... lmao.
I think it makes me sad that I'm so broke this year too. I can't really get anything for anyone. In reality, no one really needs anything, but I still feel like a piece of shit. I like giving gifts, and wrapping presents up in cute paper with bows and shit. I realize I also haven't seen any of the Christmas trees or decorations in the city this year. That usually cheers me up a little.
I'm going to feel even worse, because we are approaching January, and I'm going to be 30. People are talking about their last year in their twenties... I'm like bitch, I'm about to enter a new decade. Like just kill me. What is life like beyond 30?? I'm so depressed, and scared about it. I can't even go to Disney because my job sucks during the month of January.
It's just sad a lot of people feel excited during this time, and I just feel nothing.
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